Change – how we deal / let go / learn

"Human beings are always, and always will be, a frontier between what is known and what is not known. The act of turning any part of the unknown into the known is simply an invitation for an equal measure of the unknown to flow in and reestablish that frontier: to reassert the far horizon of an individual life; to make us what we are – that is - a moving edge between what we know about ourselves and what we are about to become. What we are actually about to become or are afraid of becoming always trumps and rules over what we think we are already." ©2014David Whyte ~ Excerpted from ‘SELF KNOWLEDGE' From the upcoming book of essays CONSOLATIONS: The Solace, Nourishment and Underlying Meaning in Everyday Words. 

Art by John Adamski – "Red Walk"

This could be potential bad news for control freaks bent on specific steps toward their future success. Yet for the brave of heart who possesses the willingness and desire to surrender, this could well be the proverbial rabbit hole that leads to our very own Alibaba's cave of boundless treasure.

Getting from Point A to Point B may well be the no man's land that many fear and few embrace. Especially for those who have built lives of comfort and achieved some measure of success. Why would one risk this loss over an uncharted unknown?

And yet, whether forced by circumstances or of our own volition and free will, we do. Because " What we are actually about to become or are afraid of becoming always trumps and rules over what we think we are already." 

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“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure” ~ Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love

In 1984 a sibling gave me a $100 with the request, “Use this for the qualifying test.” I passed the exam and filed the results.

Eighteen years later, a friend suggested that we submit an application to a company whose major requirement was the particular qualifying test. I received the congratulatory call for the move to another country, a different job and a new life. 

I had a long list of why I should not make the change - I was professionally settled, with good reputation in the community, in a nice home, with domestic staff support.

However, I was unhappy. My personal relationship was in shambles. I wanted changes and I felt there was more out there for me.  Most importantly, I knew that I will be alright. 

But Fear was loud and bold and took over my mind, filling my heart and kicking out the drive to go and make changes.   So I kept putting off the move.  Soon I had a cheering squad that I could summon immediately, saying “Stay where you are.”

I forget when I decided to fire my cheering squad and move on.  I just know that the sense of knowing what was good for me won and urged me to take the steps to commit. This whisper  and sense of knowing stayed.

Every day, I find time to be  still and quiet  and hear the  message, “You are okay and doing good. You are in charge of your life. Well done!”